Friday, November 28, 2008

New Year's Resolution in November

The last couple of months I have not been interested in making me a better me. I have been just going through the motions. I am good person...a person with a lot of drive and someone who definitely could make a difference in the world. But I have chosen to sit back and watch the world go by. Why, you may ask? I don't know. I wish I would be a lot easier. I think it all started when a great friend of mine passed away in June. It was a huge wake up call that we are only guarenteed THIS MOMENT in life. You would think this would have motivated me to live up every minute, embrace everyone around me and try to change to world. Instead, I did the opposite. I became weak...not caring. Since then, I've watched the days pass by...going through the motions with little heart. NOT ANYMORE. I am over it. As many of you know, I struggle daily with anxiety...I worry about everything...for no reason. But, I do. I go to acupuncture and take my herbs(legal ones) and am getting back on track. I am making an effort to be a better me. Not to make this Bridget Jones' diary or anything...but I am going to make a strong effort to eat healthier, exercise more and live a healthier life. I am turning 30 in May and my goal is to be on the road to a healthy lifestyle by then. I owe it to me...and the others around me who inspire me daily. Here's to my New Year's Resolution in November!


deck said...

It is hard to live life the way we believe we should. Life itself takes over and begins each day with a new, "familiar" face and we live with it. I understand this thinking of yours. I have lost three close to me in the last two years to cancer. Yesterday I tried to revive a child the same age as my daughter, that some asshole shook to death. Life, when is it over? We will only know when it is. I have vowed many times to be better. To be a better friend, husband, father. I have learned many lessons in life, and will continue to learn, but the one lesson I struggle with is how to? I vow for the new year to learn "how to". How to be better to myself, so that I may pass it on to others. Most important the ones that are the closest.

Thanks Molly for starting this. I probably will fade out. Leaving little food for thought, but I wish you and your family the best in all you do.


MK said...

Thanks you so much for comment. Your thoughts are so powerful and true. I love your realness...always have. Take care.